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The Poetic Answer to the World Going to Shit.
A poem & meditation on today’s existential melancholy.
I woke up today with a deep sense of melancholy. As someone who has wrestled with depression, I immediately set about identifying its source.
Sometimes it’s a disappointment in life. Sometimes it’s just chemicals.
Today it feels like a whole lot more, a feeling into the nature of things that on one hand leads to this heavyweight in my stomach & on the other defines ever more strongly my drive “to be.” Not because of what others see or how I was raised or the fictions in my head but because this act of “being” is by the very peril of its nihilism my greatest act of meaning.
Hence the following poem & the meditations that came with it.
The Poem
tumble me in the surf & tide, the rhythm of vein from which we are born.
crash upon me the waves of time & taste these saline lips — body curled — hand reaching. let heaven & earth twist beneath the covalent bonds, lungs on fire, hungry for life — eyes salt-stung as the light breaks through.
i will find my footing upon this shore as the twist of helix before me. i will craft of these scenes — crescent sighs, troughs of pain — your temple portico.
