Mother and Child by the Sea. Pablo Picasso.

Mother Archetype, Poverty, and Self-Care.

A personal look at how to heal and invoke the aspects of our selves.

I remember the first time I got a massage here in Bali. I must have passed the place three times before going in. It just felt wrong, like I was wasting money, spoiling myself with three dollars and fifty cents.

Today I went to a hot spring. . . and I nearly had a panic attack.

I don’t think it’s related to the money, though money has certainly come up when I sit with the anxiety twisting my stomach.

(Today cost ten dollars for the springs, an hour massage, and food.)

The real pain point here is not knowing how to sit with self-care. How to be ok with indulging in what feels like . . . I honestly don’t know.

Whatever relaxing is that doesn’t involve a chemical substance or the necessities of eating.

Indulging in the care of self?

Where the money comes in is with my stories, the memories that pop up for me when I start to sit with what is going on inside.

I work with clients on making space, goals, and mental shifts for self-care all the time. What I see in many of them is a nearly infinite capacity to care for others while maintaining a blind spot for their…