All I Want to Do is Cheat.
& other thoughts.
Its day 43 of my writing challenge and all I want to do is copy and paste something I’ve written before.
I’ve felt the resentment creep up the last couple of days. I’m starting my articles later and I’m excited about them.
There’s a lot to get done as I prep for the new year, finish some projects, launch others. Plus its been fun spending time with new friends and chatting about life.
Personally, I feel its one of the ills of society that we try and do things too consistently. The human body doesn’t run on linear time, it works in cycles and rhythms.
It doesn’t surprise me that what was inspiring me at first is now becoming a resentment but that’s ok.
I set the goal for 70 days and while I know myself better than to make this an indefinite I can squirm for the next 27 days. Its good to prove to myself that I can survive squirming, in fact, I can write some decent articles while I do.
It’s good to be stretched some. It’s good to be uncomfortable at times.
That’s what leads to growth.
A woman today asked how I was so personally “developed.” I laughed and said its the bipolar and trauma. It’s not really a joke. These experiences stretch you.
You break or you adapt.
I tried to adapt with booze, drugs, and codependency and it didn’t work. So I was left with developing myself.
Now here I am, New Year after New Year and I know I won’t regret this one, which is a lot more than I can say of New Years pasts.
My mental health and life used to stretch me. They still do in a lot of ways but where they’ve begun to settle with the fruits of labor I can apply a challenge or two.
May you be stretched enough to grow this year and may you be supported in that growth so that it is good, healthy, and leaves you more fulfilled at the start of next year!
Love and share.
I’m starting something new. Writing every day as I put my random thoughts down on binary paper.
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